God told me a while ago, I needed to share my story. I don’t know how I’m here now, other than God’s grace. When I divorced my 1st husband, I thought that was the worst thing to ever happen to me. When I was eight months pregnant, a woman called to tell me she’d been having an affair with my husband since the beginning of our marriage. I was devastated, but I overcame. I prayed for the love I felt I needed and deserved.
Three years ago, I was engaged to the most amazing man. Our relationship was like something I'd never experienced or seen. Justin was my best friend. We didn’t grow up together or know each other for years prior. I met him on a Sunday at work and by the end of that week I told him he would be my best friend. Without going too much into detail, just imagine a "perfect" relationship. I was going to be this man’s wife. My prayer for the perfect husband was about to come true.
June 12, 2011 a co-worker asked me if I was afraid of death. My response was no, I'm afraid of losing my loved ones. The next day, I found out Justin had been killed. The day Justin died, I died. Love had died. Love had left me and didn’t even say good bye. Love told me to call him on my lunch break and when I called he didn’t answer the phone. Love was killed by a drunk driver late one night on the other side of town. I lost my mind, I lost control of my finances, and I almost emotionally lost my children. For months I waited on death to return for me. I was literally in my bed waiting to die. It took my friend to tell me it would be a shame for my boys to lose two parents, instead of one.
I believe everything I’ve gone through has been for this moment. I’m excited about my outcome because the preparation for my journey has been intense. Each and every man in my life has played an important part in me learning how to love.
God's love and grace brought me back. God heard my cry, and brought Kirk into my life. I opened my heart to a man that was willing to accept me, my flaws and all. God gave me love again. This September we’ll be celebrating our 1st anniversary.
MY STRUGGLES AND MY SACRIFICES WERE ALL TO GLORIFY GOD. I GIVE GOD ALL THE GLORY. BECAUSE OF HIM, I SMILE. HE DID IT. THROUGH ME, HE HAS SHOWN HE’S REAL, HE CARES, HE LOVES YOU, AND HE LOVES ME. THE WORST THING THAT COULD EVER HAPPEN IS HIM LEAVING YOU AND NO LONGER LOVING YOU AND I’M HERE TO SAY THAT’S JUST NOT POSSIBLE.